35 years. . . . . . . . .

[charlie_the_tuna]

so after 35 years I finally decided to quit smoking. gave it up on the 27th of November, my 50th, and the first 2 weeks or so went ok. the usual cravings and triggers and wanting to stab every idiot in the neck with a pen. well, it's been almost a month and I broke down and got one of those e-cigs. supposed to be safer as i'm now inhaling vapor instead of smoke. don't know if it's much better but I do know that it aint nearly as satisfying. man, this sucks. I know I need to give it up for my health and for the boys but I've now taken to eating for 2. i'm up to about 280 and I don't forsee it coming off any time soon.
so my struggle will continue and I will continue to eat anything and everything I can fit in my mouth. don't know if I feel any healthier but I sure do want to phukking kill everybody I see.
that is all.