[Stillrunning]

Sorry to hear about your situation but she will rember what you did, for her entire life. You have built some happy memories which no one can ever take from you and what you did is more than most people would ever do. I think your idea about being a big brother is a very good idea as their are a many children needing someone they can look up to and give guidence. Like others have said things happen for a reason it just takes time to see the way life takes you.