[frayed_knot]

Thanks for the encouraging words fellas. I don't think we will try it again, it's way to painful if the same thing happens. I believe that if we were to get a kid as an infant, perhaps it could work. But you have to spend $$ to get one. Overseas adoptions are expensive, many thousands of $$ just to apply. You cannot get a healthy white baby, even through the state, unless you are lucky or rich, and I am neither. I'll look into the Big Brothers or some other mentoring org and take a kid fishing or sumfin.