Merry Xmas

[aussie]

Originally Posted by macojoe

hey aussie! no blocks here that i know of?? as for the wife i have heard worst news!! good to move on now!!

destroyr 2916?? we all be dead by then!!LOL

Hope you doing well not worried too much as I can get on here now and upset people Hope your health has been good and as for my wife and sons walking out on me not being the worse lets get one thing straight my wife and sons was my Life and she was the Love of my life and my life revolved around them over here we marry women we love and a few mates have taken there lives because to them they have lost everything .I dont know what you hold close to your heart cant be the same as me and I dont understand why your a mean person to me .Yes my wife and Kids are or should say were my Life

[macojoe]

Hope you doing well not worried too much as I can get on here now and upset people Hope your health has been good and as for my wife and sons walking out on me not being the worse lets get one thing straight my wife and sons was my Life and she was the Love of my life and my life revolved around them over here we marry women we love and a few mates have taken there lives because to them they have lost everything .I dont know what you hold close to your heart cant be the same as me and I dont understand why your a mean person to me .Yes my wife and Kids are or should say were my Life

I am not being mean?? Jids are important, I have 2 and now 2 grandkids with a third on the way!! Women on the other hand are a dime a dozen, if she thinks shes better off, she loses! Kids are for life, they will be in your life again, you will see.

My health still sucks. but hope to get my new kidney by march!! My donor is just finishimg up some tests next week, then we will be good to go.
My wife has been in a nursing home since Aug, has almost checked out a few times, her sister died last friday. so lots of fun going on here

[Destroyer]

Originally Posted by macojoe

I am not being mean?? Jids are important, I have 2 and now 2 grandkids with a third on the way!! Women on the other hand are a dime a dozen, if she thinks shes better off, she loses! Kids are for life, they will be in your life again, you will see.

My health still sucks. but hope to get my new kidney by march!! My donor is just finishimg up some tests next week, then we will be good to go.
My wife has been in a nursing home since Aug, has almost checked out a few times, her sister died last friday. so lots of fun going on here

MJ Sorry to hear about your wife's sis. My condolences. and yes 2916 will probably not see me alive. I guess I'll shoot for 2016 instead... lol.

Aussie, wives are the same everywhere (except in some backward Countries where they are regarded the same as cattle). But in most civilized Countries they mean the world to most of us. But it's been my personal experience that when a woman walks out on you, no matter how much it hurts, it's probably for the good. Because if either person is unhappy in a marriage then it will be hell for both of them in the long run... So if one door has closed, just look around... I'm sure you'll see that another one has opened somewhere. And kids will always be your's, no matter what. Just give them time. God bless.

[aussie]

Originally Posted by macojoe

I am not being mean?? Jids are important, I have 2 and now 2 grandkids with a third on the way!! Women on the other hand are a dime a dozen, if she thinks shes better off, she loses! Kids are for life, they will be in your life again, you will see.

My health still sucks. but hope to get my new kidney by march!! My donor is just finishimg up some tests next week, then we will be good to go.
My wife has been in a nursing home since Aug, has almost checked out a few times, her sister died last friday. so lots of fun going on here

Joe I wish I am as strong as you but Im not .I am a person who does not Like change and when it happens I fall appart.I miss understood what you said because my mind is not in the right place and I do wish you all the luck in the world with you operations.As for another women I dont think I could trust another Im no tuff guy and at the moment Im finding it hard to find a reason to live they call it depression .Joe I just cant seem to find what makes me happy.I think I may be complaining to the wrong person as you seem to have more heartache than me I dont know how you manage to get out of bed in the morning because i find it hard.theres one thing with me when I love it for Life and it never leaves me My first love still haunts me it is like I just want to be set free from all these memories .......I guess it sounds like alot of rubbish that I talk about....... I AM TRULY LOST

[macojoe]

you willbe fine ausie, it will take time and it not easy!!!! but you will get there. The kids will get a little older and relize they want you in there life, and you will meet someone ands be happy again, till then just stay busy busy busy!!
Belive me there are days i don't want to get up but i got to do it if i want to live! going sitting on a machine 4 hours a day sucks and ewipes you out!! but then i go see my wife to make sure she is being taken care of in the home. she fights the nurses some days and doesn't want to get cleanec up. i go there yell at her and sometimes hold her down so they do what they can, like you say its not easy!! but you gpot to do what you got to do,not going to be easyh when she goes we have been toghter 35 years Feb 1st
Here she is with some fat guy in 2002, then now, its sad to watch

[roffey]

I admit I do not post here very often but I still do creep the forum, you guys all seem like such caring group of boaters. Aussie, you seem to be in a really bad place in your life and I must admit it troubles me to read this as you seem so hurt. Aussie you are looking for help and should seek it. Don’t think I am not feeling for you. I have my wife of 35 years and my kids all live close by so I can’t say truthfully I understand your pain but do know how depression and post-traumatic stress feels. I know you should see a professional. Here in Canada we can see our family doctor and start the process. Don’t look at this as failure we all need some help and depression is serious and don’t ignore it, seek help. Use this from as an outlet for sure, I am sure you will get lots of support here. Things will turn around for you.

[aussie]

Originally Posted by roffey

I admit I do not post here very often but I still do creep the forum, you guys all seem like such caring group of boaters. Aussie, you seem to be in a really bad place in your life and I must admit it troubles me to read this as you seem so hurt. Aussie you are looking for help and should seek it. Don’t think I am not feeling for you. I have my wife of 35 years and my kids all live close by so I can’t say truthfully I understand your pain but do know how depression and post-traumatic stress feels. I know you should see a professional. Here in Canada we can see our family doctor and start the process. Don’t look at this as failure we all need some help and depression is serious and don’t ignore it, seek help. Use this from as an outlet for sure, I am sure you will get lots of support here. Things will turn around for you.

Thanks roffery this forum is like Family to me .I did go to get help from a shrink .I told him my situation I had a hour visit and it was not enough time to tell him my lifes journey at the end of the session I didnt like what he said to me.Angelo you have had a hard life but theres nothing I can really help you with I can offer you meds so that you can sleep and have a appetite again.He cant help me with my problems I was a good Farther and husband...I dont drink.I dont do drugs .I dont beat on my wife .I have always been faithful.I have never lied to her .any money I had was for the family why do u think my boat never got finished because there needs always came first.You are right my Mental health is far from good and each day i dont know if I can make it to the next day.Marriage is meant to be for life I take my vowels seriously....I hope and wait for some change in my life that will take the edge of all this mental pain drugs that the doc gives me helps but its like a roller coaster ups and downs .....The hardest thing to deal with is not having the answer to some of my WHYS

[aussie]

Originally Posted by macojoe

you willbe fine ausie, it will take time and it not easy!!!! But you will get there. The kids will get a little older and relize they want you in there life, and you will meet someone ands be happy again, till then just stay busy busy busy!!
Belive me there are days i don't want to get up but i got to do it if i want to live! Going sitting on a machine 4 hours a day sucks and ewipes you out!! But then i go see my wife to make sure she is being taken care of in the home. She fights the nurses some days and doesn't want to get cleanec up. I go there yell at her and sometimes hold her down so they do what they can, like you say its not easy!! But you gpot to do what you got to do,not going to be easyh when she goes we have been toghter 35 years feb 1st
here she is with some fat guy in 2002, then now, its sad to watch

thanks joe for sharing your photos

[bradford]

Feel for both of y'all. Hang in there the best you can. MJ you seem to keep your spirits up pretty well considering what all you've been dealing with, at least that's the way it sounds. Aussie keep your chin up, it will be hard, but it's the only thing to do. After you get a little time on the situation you'll have a better perspective on things. Mj I haven't forgotten about your hydraulic helm.

[aussie]

The thoughts that are making me so unhappy is Failure.I have failed to keep my marriage and to keep the one I Love happy and have failed my sons to have a full happy Family ......You may think its crazy but if she died I would be dealing with it more better because it would be out of my control and not make me feel like it was my fault and not think if I would of done this better it wouldn,t of happen .Marriage is for Life... No matter what happens... Your meant to take the good with the bad ....My mind and thoughts are really stuffed at the moment with all these drugs that I am taking to keep me calm.....2016 I have to try and get off all these drugs and hope it may change the way I think ....I am too afraid to even think about allowing another women in my Life .I don,t think I could trust another and with my Health issues there,s no way I want to feel like I,m a burden to her the same way I felt with my wife ..... The worse thing is I still and will always love my x wife