scared sh!tless..........

[charlie_the_tuna]

so I was diagnosed with diabetes about 5 years ago. one of the wonderful things my dad left me. tried to control through diet. no good. tried to control through half suggested dose of pills. no good. finally listened to my doctor and took the pills he told me to, but my eating was pretty much out of control. well, I went for my 12 month eye exam and got a pretty good scare. the retinologist, who's a bit of a jerk, tells me 'you have diabetic retinopathy. you could be legally blind in 5 years. see you in 6 months'. so immediately I drastically changed my diet and watched every little thing I put in my mouth, and I've been pretty good. so I went to a retina specialist this week and the exam was 50 times more comprehensive. well, he told me I didn't have retinopathy but I did have a leaky blood vessel in my right eye. he wants to see me back in a month and if it gets worse he wants to give me AN EYE INJECTION!! yup. an injection in my eye ball. this is a very scary prospect for me. he says i'll be wide awake and it wont hurt at all. I cringe when they give me eye drops. I cant imagine what this will be like!?!?!
it seems the golden years aren't all that golden after all!