[willy]

Seen too much of that, got lumped up too many times. Did a bunch of lumping up.
But those aren't the ones, those go away after the blood stops and the swelling goes down.
The ones that stay with you, the child victims, the women that have been destroyed by animals, the innocent victims dead that you have to find answers to. Looking two legged animals in the eye when you finally catch them and know you have to figure out how to get a confession out of them so the victim does not have to re-live it over and over in court.
And the whole time having to deal with a skewed justice system and internal PD politics.
Those are the ones that don't go away. I've been lucky, I have gotten thru twenty eight years of it and still have a sense of humor, great family and a lot of good friends and I am able to put it behind me when I leave.
And now I have seven working days left, taking my pension and leaving the police work forever. Going to figure out what I am going to do when I grow up and get a job.
But like I said above some things I will be taking with me, also a lot of good things. Like the hundreds of people that I have helped in their worst times. The justice I brought to many that would have never had closure without it.
And the look of the little kid crossing the street when she is worried about something or someone and she see's you standing there, you can't buy that look from anyone.