sorry to hear about your dad, as well as all the other hurdles you've had to endure. sounds like you were being tested. glad you're getting back to some version of normal. your post reminded me of a scene in one of my favorite movies. good luck with everything and i'm sure you will land on your feet.
I have often felt like Job in the unwritten parable of Job. but it always gets better.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rPHi-8DSJbo