Joe, I went thru the same thing with my first wife 35+ years ago. (She died of lung cancer) There is nothing I can say except that you have to accept that it's a blessing for them to walk thru that door. Their pain and suffering stops, and really, when all is said and done, isn't that what we wish for our loved ones? That they aren't suffering anymore? That their pain is gone? I know your heartfelt pain only too well, and about the only thing I can say is that it will diminish a little over time. It never really goes completely away, but it will get better. Time is a wonderful healer of both the mind and the heart. I pray for you and I pray for her that you will overcome this tragic event. You are both in my daily prayers. God bless you both. 
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1987 V20 w/1987 150HP Yamaha on a Shoreland'r Trailer
1978 16.5 Airslot w/1996 120HP Force on a Four Winns trailer
1996 V21 w/1993 200HP Mercury on a Shoreline Trailer
All towed by a 5.7L Hemi Durango.
If God didn't have a purpose for us we wouldn't be here, so
Live simply, Love generously, Care deeply, Speak kindly.
(Leave the rest to God) 
Silence, in the face of evil, is itself evil. Not to speak is to speak, not to act is to act. God will not hold us guiltless.
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