[macojoe]

you willbe fine ausie, it will take time and it not easy!!!! but you will get there. The kids will get a little older and relize they want you in there life, and you will meet someone ands be happy again, till then just stay busy busy busy!!
Belive me there are days i don't want to get up but i got to do it if i want to live! going sitting on a machine 4 hours a day sucks and ewipes you out!! but then i go see my wife to make sure she is being taken care of in the home. she fights the nurses some days and doesn't want to get cleanec up. i go there yell at her and sometimes hold her down so they do what they can, like you say its not easy!! but you gpot to do what you got to do,not going to be easyh when she goes we have been toghter 35 years Feb 1st
Here she is with some fat guy in 2002, then now, its sad to watch