Sorry for your loss!!
I have been there done that! I mentor and best friend was 76 years old, and 6 years ago was killed in a car crash.
He was in Hospital and I did not want to go cause they said he was dead in the car and that they would have to pull the plug, I helped the family with there decision but never went there to see him, I wanted to remember him the way i knew him!
I could not even fish for the rest of the season!! Cause I had not been fishing with out him for 10 years!!
Man I still miss him!