[macojoe]

I know you are right Destroyer, but I just get feeling down at times. Hoping that with a bit more time things wil turn around? Heck I abused my body the first 49 years and expect it to be perfect in just a few months.
As far as getting on disability goes, I have always did it on y own till now, I see so many kids today saying they are Bipolar and a host of other stupid crap, sucking off the system, that i don't want to be one of them!! But i told the lady at th SS office that hopefully this is going to be a temporary thing? and being a state worker I guess I will have to use up my retirement fund before i get ss as i don't pay state taxes, it goes in retirement fund instead. Still learning how this works??

Thanks for all the good wishes everyone, and hope i can post some good news at some point!