[Destroyer]

Originally Posted by macojoe

Thanks everyone!
Cb has it right, there are days better then others, and I know that this was for the better, but I sometimes think it would have been better to be fat and strong, then skinny and sick. I know this is a long road but I get sick of waitting for it.
My job has been great! I am out of work for a year today, and they for the most part payed me for all of it! I just wrote them a letter and got papers from doctor so they will extend my time out, not sure how much longer they will go?? but the pay has stopped at this point but they will hold the job a bit longer.
I hate to jump on the wagon with the rest of the country and go on disability, but I have started the app. for it, I think this is the only way to make?? I most likely able to get on it 5 years ago, but did not want to jump on that wagon, but now i have to.



I would love to go and meet you guys!, but AI would be more a burden to people that want to go and have fun! Hopefully I will get better at some point and be able to go another time?

I think you misunderstand MJ. That is exactly WHY disability was created, and why YOU have been paying into it for all these years.. It's SUPPOSED to be a safety net for people in your situation. Not the retirement cushion it has become by so many lazy people that just don't want to get up off their asses and actually work. Don't feel bad about using it. It's there for your use because you earned it.
As to the fat and healthy as opposed to thin and sick comment, I think I might have to disagreee with some of it. The point is, you were dying when you were fat and not so healthy. The diabeties was slowly killing you, and you know it. It's the still lingering effects of that sickness that are with you today and I would bet that they are causing most of your problems. You yourself said

But the diabetes is still killing me off! The last thing is Kidneys, they are at about 18%

My bet is that's a huge part of your present problems. (Which is why I said in my first post on this thread that prayers are continuing to be sent for your recovery). You'll make it boss.. just gotta let these things run their course.